Da Poet Tree

Back from Africa

2006-06-28T07:29:00.000-07:00

I'm back folks!!! I must admit that there are no words to explain my experience on the incredible continent of Africa in the country of Tanzania and in the little village of Imbesini right outside the town of Arusha!

So, just enjoy the pictures: http://s52.photobucket.com/albums/g39/arkeithjr/

AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-05T04:43:00.000-07:00

HATUJAMBO FOLKS!!

The countdown has officially kicked off. In less than 24 hours I will be on my way to Arusha, Tanzania in east Africa.
As mentioned to many of you before, I’ll be studying abroad for 3 weeks in Tanzania; looking at art as a form of global empowerment and activism.

I will be traveling with a class of about 20 folks – mostly undergraduate students and a few faculty members. One of the students created a website for our class that will document our stay – check it out (if you click on class you can see pics of the students going). http://www.uf-os.net/tanzania/

I’ll be staying at the United African Alliance Community Center (http://www.uaacc.habari.co.tz/). ß this is a community center started by Charlotte & Pete O’Neal (former members of the Kansas City Black Panther Party). Here, we will be teaching classes and organizing workshops on poetry, photography, art, and creating journals.

There is not really much else to say besides I am really excited – I’ve packed my bags over and over again, been poked full of holes from immunizations at the University Health Center, and just started taking my anti-malarial pills.

I’ll try to keep everyone posted on the trip through my blog but there is no guarantee I’ll have time or consistent access to the internet while at the center. So until then – ASANTE!!

~Tony

Oh PS: I won’t be going to South Africa anymore – the internship would not fit into the limited time schedule I had to be on the continent L, but I’ll fill you in on where I’ll be doing an internship instead later on.

Struggle

2006-04-09T08:26:00.000-07:00

So i've been suffering from severe writers block for the past 3 years or so....what's interesting is, i remember the point i stopped writting because i was struggling with some identity issues, and now that i am much more aware of my self and my identity, my pen is chasing after the words because they are flowing out too quickly....but last night my pen caught up with these....

Untitled & Unfinished
I wrote a dream about you and read it in my sleep
I clasped my hands, kneeled on the floor and spoke outloud thoughts about you and I sleeping together
Pieces of you I placed in my pen and wrote you all over the sheets of our bed
And then I laid in them and engulfed my self in the poetry of us
The words seeped through the sheets and into my skin and I absorbed our metaphors and turned them into nightmares where I am running
and you are chasing
and I am falling and
you are catching and
we are gliding
while gravity is pulling and
we are yelling yet
we are loving and
we are disappearing before we hit the ground and I wake up to find my self holding on to the letters of us, cuddling inside the curves of our words and smelling the scents made by our sounds……
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Don’t really have too many updates right now, but I am struggling with the idea that despite my academic accolades, I am not guaranteed a major increase in income upon re-entering the working world. I have to ask my self, how do I put monetary value on something I’m passionate about? I am however about 64% sure that I am moving back to DC area after I graduate.

The way I see it – I’ve gained so much knowledge and experience and have so many ideas and so far have experienced a great deal of success within the higher education community and working with college students of color that I’d be doing a disservice if I did not go home and give this back to the community that raised me. What’s weird is, moving up here involved taking my self out of my comfort zone, but now this place has become my comfort zone and now I have to step outside of this place in order for me to move back to DC. Crazy right?

I keep asking my self, what if I don’t get the right job? What if I can’t set my own hours or organize the programs I want? What if I don’t get the opportunity to be autonomous with my projects? What if the University I am working for does not allow complexity? I don’t work well with too much structure lol I need some flexibility and I need to earn enough so that I can buy a home, and eat out twice a week lol I still plan to hold on to “Sasha the Magnificent 1989 Honda” but I mean I might wanna put some new tires on her or something lol

But I do know one thing – I have a year left up here and I plan on maximizing on every last opportunity…..

Oh and i left my clippers last time i went home to DC - so i've been forced to grow a beard until I get them back lol.....how does it look?

Memoradum: Feed the Public

2006-03-22T14:37:00.000-08:00

To: My Public

From: Toe-Knee

Subject: Let’s Eat

So…it would appear that I have a public – and the public is hungry for an update on Da Poetree. And I for one know how difficult it is to function on an empty stomach, so for all of you who actually read this (regularly?) THANKS and by all means unloosen your belts, put on a loose tee-shirt, get ya momma’s good china and enjoy the feast I’ve laid out for you……

Spring Break

Pure and utter hotness! “Sasha the Magnificent 1989 Honda” didn’t appear to be a day over 10 years old as she leaped over tall mountains and hills and flew over potholes with an arthritic gracefulness that made me question who needs a 740 Beamer when you can have this. Although her headlights are properly maintained by pieces of aluminum foil wedged in a groove, and sure she screams like a banshee when the passenger seatbelt is not fastened within 2 seconds, and sure her once soft and supple leather seats are like burned brillo pads, and well of course her once beautiful sea blue and autumn green hue looks more like swamp water from the Bayou, but the way the cheeks of my butt melt into the crevice of the driver’s seat and how perfectly my foot gravitates to the worn down pads on the clutch and gas make it all worth it.

“Sasha the Magnificent 1989 Honda” and I were like a recreated Thelma and Louise escaping the shadows of State College, PA for the wide open spaces of Dover, DE to enjoy a simple night of movies, food, and chit chat. Then we were off to Brooklyn, NY to immerse ourselves in the artistic atmosphere created by a painter and a poet – enjoy some fried fish from the local carryout and then stop off in the Bronx,NY for a home cooked meal with my extremely extended family. Next was a quick stop in Philly to enjoy a midnight breakfast, a conversation about baggage, and to watch the hustle and bustle of Philly nightlife while sitting in an apartment on 21st floor of a luxurious high rise with windows for walls that painted a picture of serenity as the Delaware river flowed by. Our journey ended in Washington, DC where I wrapped myself up inside the roots of my family tree and submerged in the warmth of good friends & of course…good food.

Africa

The countdown begins for yet another journey, but this time on the continent of Africa.

The 1st stop is Tanzania. It will be part of a summer course offered by the Women’s Studies Department that will explore art as a form of social change, empowerment and activism. I will use this opportunity to explore the use of art as a strategy to present issues facing underprivileged populations to the higher education community.

The 2nd stop is South Africa! This experience will serve as an internship for my graduate program at the University of Pretoria. Here I’ll be working in the Student Affairs Division examining the college student experience, as well as identifying key strategies to support international students attending institutions of higher education in the U.S.

By the way umm DONATION’S ARE WELCOME!!$$!!

Love is in the air....

It’s too complicated to explain the need to achieve perfection of this emotion…love
It is far easier to explain the need to understand….love
You invite something into your spirit that flows like the Nile…love
Without a compass you lose your way….love
Without a raft you are forced to swim…love
Without balance you can’t float…love
It’s too complicated to explain the need to achieve perfection of this emotion
I do however understand that I need to understand it…love

........I had a front row seat to my little sisters wedding. It is amazing to experience someone elses love - something so deep that a lifelong committement is the only way to express it so that other can fathom to understand....and in a couple of months, I will experience this understanding of love again....(more updates on this soon)

-----> Side note <---- yo I look real grown & sexy in a tux.... <-------

Life is good.

Healthy, broke, belly full, alive, and consistently maintaining my hot & sexy nerd appeal…

and...i'm out...:)

I've been tagged....SHEESH...

2006-03-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

Thank you Miss McLaughlin...... Now I Have Something To Post About.....

Four Jobs I've Had: (only four?)

1. Graduate Assistant - Paul Robeson Cultural Center - Penn State Univ.
2. Program Assistant - National League of Cities' Institute for Youth, Education & Families
3. Student Assistant - USDA/Agricultural Research Serivice/Civil Rights Staff
4. Production Manager - Black Explosion Newspaper - Univ. of Maryland College Park

Four Movies I Can Watch Over and Over:

1. The Incredibles
2. Love Jones
3. Pirates of the Carribean
4. Gladiator

Four Places I've Lived:

1. Washington, DC
2. Alexandria, VA
3. Greenbelt, MD
4. State College, PA

Four Shows I Love:

1. Simpsons
2. Family Guy
3. Teen Titans
4. Desperate Housewives

Four highly-touted TV shows ... I don't get the hype:

1. American Idol
2. Survivor
3. CSI
4. Law & Order

Four books I'd recommend to anyone, anytime:

1. A Hope in the Unseen by Ron Suskind
2. Davinci Code - Dan Brown (yes i got on the bandwagon)
3. Angels & Demons - Dan Brown
4. And This Too Shall Pass - E. Lynn Harris

Four Places I've Vacationed:

1. Cancun
2. Miami
3. Chicago
4. Orlando
4.5 - Africa - coming soon!!

Four Sites I Visit Daily

1. Bank of America - gotta make sure things stay above the red lol
2. PNC Bank - i like to keep my $ stashed in multiple places ;)
3. Facebook - the work of the devil!
4. Google News

I don't have anyone to tag - so i'll tag the one who tagged me:

1. Miss McLaughlin

IMissHomeItis....

2006-02-06T07:28:00.000-08:00

So i'm sick :( This weekend was the Superbowl as we all know - GO STEELERS...but umm as i was sitting in my friend's overly luxurious apartment (for a graduate student in State College, PA) with 6 other really cool black folks people eating free Pizza Hut and drinking some randon brand of keg beer (ugh) and discussing sports and other randomness, i started to wish that I could walk out of the apartment and somehow walk directly into the store that hug the corner block of my old neighboorhood - ask for 4 packs of 25 cent Now and Laters and a bottle of Cherry Smash soda!

Then walk up two more buildings and go in my barbershop and trip out w/ the local folks and absorb the familiar smells of whatever that liquid they put on your head after you get a cut that's a mix of 2 parts rubbing alcohol and 1 part Polo Sport cologne, and the smell of hot clippers mowing the lawns off the men in the neighborhood. Which reminds me - I need to cut my hair....

After getting a fresh cut - i'd hop in my 89 Honda, make my way to SE, DC (Stanton Rd.) <--- Da Hood....and have fun doing absolutely nothing with my friends besides eating and watching concert DVD's lol

Altho don't get me wrong - State College really is not THAT bad.. I do enjoy the random trips to the Carribean Cuisine (altho they don't sell Cocoa Bread to go w/ my Beef Patties)....I don't mind sitting @ my desk at work and having it hovered around by the undergraduates like vultures giving me their life philosophies and updates on their college experiences. I don't mind getting the Chai Tea w/ Soy Milk from the coffee shop in the Union. I don't mind the smell of my apartment - a mix between vanilla candles and laundry detergent. I don't mind going to a local bar and having a drink or two or three or five with the young ladies from my graduate program. I don't mind clowning around with my fellow black graduate students. I don't mind the sense of euphoria that engulfs me as I wander around Wegmans' grocery store in search of the nights' meal. Eventually these things will become familiar enough to feel like a home away from home.

But you have to admit - State College is a beautiful place. Nowhere else can you find air this crisp and beautiful views of the mountains. Altho I wouldn't mind seeing a "wino" taking his last sip of cheap wine at the stoop of my building while watching the kids play football in the street.....

Re-Soul-Lution

2006-01-22T17:35:00.000-08:00

.....striving to make sense of the idea and purpose of "new year's resolutions" i find my self making a re-soul-lution....thus...seeking to understand my life's current purpose...for i'm sure it will change again soon...and it's congruency to my soul....

It is becoming more clearer by the months, days, hours, minutes and seconds, that my soul belongs to the dreams and aspirations of those before me. I am just a vessel carrying forth their visions.

Thank you for getting dragged on a ship, thank you for crossing the waters, thank you for the forced labor, thank you for the pain, thank you for the creation of hope, thank you for escaping, thank you for getting caught and killed, thank you for protesting, thank you for saying No, thank you for never accepting inferiority, thank you for dying, thank you for getting arrested, thank you for opening doors so that I may open doors so that others may open doors.....

I am learning to have a deeper appreciation and better understanding of my idenity and the idenity of others. Thus, in 2006 I predict I will attempt to answer the question "Who Am I?" more times than I ever have before in my life.

Am I? A social change agent
Am I? A leader
Am I? A teacher
Am I? Destined for "great things" - what makes them "great"
Am I? Humble
Am I? Consistent
Am I? Forgiving
Am I? Active....or Proactive
Am I? Balanced
Am I? A friend
Am I? Who I am...or is this a facade?

And I'm Loved :)

2005-12-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

Despite the lack of excitetment and the saturated tone of negativity on my blog lately, I recieved an e-mail from my most favorite person on this planet - my God Mother. She read my blog a little while ago about "Nice Guys Finishing Last" and this is what she said:

"I'm sorry you are experiencing the pain of unrequited love and lonliness right now.
I read ahead to subsequent entries and am happy to see you have some good friends who are lifting your spirits.
Hang in there! You knew this experience would be a "different" one from the beginning - ride it out with grace and in style and you may be very surprised at what you find not only around each bend but at the end of the journey.
I love you and I would pursue you anywhere -- you are one of the most loving, kind, sensitive, intelligent, concerned, generous people I know. You can't hide it, other's will always see it -- some will be jealous, some may be intimidated, but those rare few will be enchanted by it, drawn to you like bees to honey and the resulting friendships and relationships make life worthwhile."

Talk about inspiration! Truly a huge pick me up. Ya know as I enter into the new year, I am definitely going to take full advantage of my journeys and travel with a watchful eye around every bend - and not just for 'love' but for 'life'. I am going to live every single day as if it's the last and if I don't have a "Boo" to share it with OHHH WELL.

Damnit - I'm a sexy nerd whose probably bound for a not-so affluent life in the non-profit world or as some kind of social justice freedom fighter lol but my life will have meaning and overall I'll live a life of happiness by making others happy. Now if someone was smart, they'd try to get on the bandwagon now because in a few years there will be a waiting list to be my "Boo".

LOL - okay maybe that was a bit much, but I'm allowed to think Big from time to time.

I'll probalby post something up right b4 the new year - i feel some serious resolution making coming on.

and to my God Mother - I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOU TO EVERY FIBER IN YOUR BEING and I am still proud to admit that I know a Neil Diamond song and eat Fluffer Nutter sandwhiches :)

i'm outt!!!

~Toe-Knee

Expanding the Social Bubble

2005-11-20T10:01:00.000-08:00

So, in an effort to not wallow in my own pity, i've decided i really need to make the most of my 2 years in State College, PA and actually hang w/ those folks who want to hang with me so let me introduce everyone to some of my favorite people lol

This, is my mentor - Angie.

I love my Angie, she's a 2nd year in my Master's program. I'm going to miss her when she graduates in May - but i'm sooo proud of her! Angie forces me to come out and play - just the other day we sat at a bar for like 3 hours watching the Pistons game. Thanks Mentor!

This, is my bestest friend Crystal Leigh - aka "Suga n Spice"

She hates the picutre lol but i think it truly speaks to her personality. Suga keeps me smiling all day long she such a pleasant and postive person to know. I am 100% certain that my experience at Penn State would not be the same w/out my Suga. I love her to every tiny piece of her little tail bone. lol Very Southern in her dialect and has a powerful and piercing toungue when she performs her art that leaves me breathless every single time.

Ahhhh and the beautiful Trez

Trully one of the world's most pleasant people. Her and Suga are peas in a pod and I'm glad that i'm slowly entering the "pod" status lol Sweet Lousisana soul sista with a voice that will sing your blues away anyday. I love you Trez!!!!

And of course Toby aka Miss Jankins...lol

She would kill me if she knew i put her up here lol She's my boss and definitely one of my greatest friends up here at Penn. She is truly a magical person and I don't think she will every fully comprehend how special and influential she is to the lives of many folks. I admire and respect Miss Jankins - she trully makes Penn State feel like home most times. I love you too Toby!! Thanks for everything

So, as you can see, my entire PSU friendship circle consist of nothing but women. lol Which is ok. I am the only guy in my cohort (well that is full time) but in general it's me and my ladies (Melissa, Laura, Liesal, Annie, Sara, Moran He & Joan). They all keep me grounded and on track most of the time.

So, i'm proud of my self for stepping outside of my lil apartment in the woods and checking out some local clubs and bars from time to time with my ladies. Perhaps I'll get some guy friends at some point, but then again, i doubt if i'd be putting their pics up on my blog...something about that just feels a lil i dunno...weird.

But to all the fellas that hold it down in the PRCC - i gots mad love for ya'll and i'm very proud of each of you and I can't wait for your graduations!!!

Nice Guy Finishing Last

2005-11-20T09:18:00.000-08:00

Alright - look. I've started thinking about something recently and that is why the hell am I always the one in pursuit of someone else (romantically speaking). For once I want someone to be so head over heels for me that they can't get me out of their mind for 15 seconds at a time. For once I want someone to be pissed off because I said I would call and I didn't. For once I want someone else to say "hey can we please spend more time together?" For once can someone say "Tony, I miss you." It's like i'm in a game of chase but i'm chasing my self because the other person isn't running they just arent actively participating in the friggin chase.

I mean what is that about???

And i know i know - things will happen in time and the right person will come along and don't worry someone will recognize your potential....blah blah blah and bullshyt. After years and years of always being the person in the "chasing seat" I'm tired. I want to be followed from now on.

I vow on this day to never ever actively seek out an "affectionate friend" and if that means I end up being the lonley guy with a cat (Which i already am...in the fukkin boondocks) then that's just that. No more flirting, no more clubs, and whatever else this process entails. Wow I need to move out of this little town soon - I think loneliness has truly become a disease.

Now that the venting is done....Thanksgiving is next week and I can't wait to go home and see my family and my DC friends. I really miss those familiar things, smells, and sights of home. It's crazy because well, i dont have any place to stay altho someone very special offered me a place to stay and that means a lot. I just hope that idea does not backfire in some sort of way - i know how emotional i can be at times....

Well i don't want to drag anyone else into my slump of sadness so i'll post something up later on this week. I've decided i need to start blogging more or something. Venting through writing can be very therapuetic - it's much easier than cleaning - although that always seems to clear my head. And the way things have been going - my apartment is spotless.

Im out...Happy Holiday and Shyt.

~ToeKnee

O'Fishly A Penn State Head

2005-10-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

Im officially a Penn State Head - wearing the logo sweatshirt and all. It's not as bad as I originally thought i'd be. I mean granted I am the only black dude in most of my classes - actually all of them....hmpf...

My job in the Cultural Center is keeping me pretty busy but my boss is great. She's arranged for me to go South Africa next summer for 6 weeks to do an internship at the University of Pretoria! I mean...wow ...Africa

I seem to be gaining more insight into my "blackness" as I interact with the town of State College, PA. I recently found out that out of 41,000 students on the campus, only 1600 are black and dig this only 522 of that 1600 are black males! What the fukk. The sad part is that is just the undergraduate population. And unfortunately there are about 6,000 graduate students and only 245 of them are black; what makes it worse is about 1/3 of that 245 are black males. So..i'm somewhat of an anomoly on this campus. I often get the "what should we my office do for MLK Jr. Day?" question - not to mention the fact that i've learned to cut my own hair....umm right (that pic above was pre-haircut) lol

Most of all Grad school is just a lot of work, i mean tons and tons of reading and class discussions and a paper due damn near every week, but it's cool.

I've been asked to sit on the PSU President's Commission on Racial and Ethnic Diversity - so hopefully he'll be open to my radical suggestions as a black graduate male on this ridiculously large white campus.

The good thing is, I actually did save 15% on my car insurance with GEICO cuz it's cheap as hell to live here :)

I'm out....

"B" Stands for NASCAR

2005-07-26T11:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah so ummm I staffed the NASCAR races in the Poconos for yet the 2nd time this year and boy oh boy was it an interesting weekend.

Not only do I earn a fairly decent pay check, but I get to experience some of the craziest shyt from racist rednecks to a restaraunt completely dedicated to paying homage to my artery clogging friend - the swine. (By the way "Piggy's Restaraunt" is like Metamucil on Steroids)

Since so many things happened, the only way I could get it all in to my little space on the web is by categories and it just so happens that they all begin with the letter "B".

Busted

How I looked after several days without shaving, eating or sleeping properly.

Budweiser

Only Budweiser can make a man take covers off a trash can and make a very fashionable toga.

Beer Bellies

There comes a time in every drunks life that he or she gives up on finding clothes that fit - it's best to just arch your back and hope your spine can withold the gut.

Bare Feet

This one is still a little puzzling - perhaps her calluses were so thick that she did not fear the vomit, beer, spit, dirt, and other bodily fluids and outside funk that could potentially find its way into the pores of her feet and cause severe infections.

Butt Cheeks

Only at NASCAR could a women wear a skirt so shirt that it makes it very clear that panties were not even an option that day.

Bonding

Perhaps I should have called this "breathing" - one of the few moments we got a chance to sit back and relax once the race started. Yes that is ice on Dylans "Broken" foot - well whaddya know another "B".

Bonfires

What else is there to do in the middle of night in the woods with a bunch of folks who've been drinking since the begining of time? Oh I know, make a pit and burn some shyt! (Glad I trust these folks because for minute i was thinking "lynching??") Just kiddin - they were hilarious people to hang with and at random times I actually enjoyed bing the token black.

BAM!

Joke told to me by a drunk red neck: "So, a black man was out of work for a while" - and i quote "Cuz you know how those blacks are" - "He finally gets a letter in the mail from a job opportunity. He rushes in the house to tell his wife" - he says, "Honey I got a job at the B.A.M factory and they are going to pay me 2% commission on what I make isn't that great!!!" and his wife smacks upside his head and says, "No you Idiot, that's not BAM, this is a notice to" - and i quote "Get your Black Ass to Mississippi and pick some cotton"

I can't realy say anymore about this - Thanks Dylan for saving me from ripping this man's face from his skull.

Lessons Learned at 24

2005-07-18T05:10:00.000-07:00

So...I turned 24 this past Sunday. It's interesting because no matter how old I get - having my mom sing the "Happy Birthday" song as if I was still her 2 year old child always bring a smile to my face. It will forever be priceless.

My friends threw me the best party! Well...it was supposed to be brunch but if you call eating: bacon, eggs, grits, biscuits, waffles and sipping Mimosas at 2:43 in the afternoon "brunch" then we "brunched" down!

It turns out this party was not only celebrating my 24 years of life but also my new years i'll experience in Pennsylvania. I could not ask for a greater group of friends and family. (2 parties for 1 - i think it was a cheap idea to do 2 celebrations at 1 cost, but i wont' say nothing...)

I felt like I was on my own BET tribute special! There were musical selections, speeches and GIFTS!

To all who came to celebrate me - THANK YOU!!

What 24 years taught me:

Everything happens for a reason
What doesn't kill you does infact make you stronger
Accept the fact that everyone operates different from you & you can not change them
Love is a real emotion that can't be perfected, just worked on over time
Be selective in choosing those you keep around you
Thinking optimistically is sometimes unrealistic, but thiniking pessimistically is sometimes too realistic - find a balance
Drink WATER! - Thanks Kesh
Never let the negative words or actions of others influence ANYTHING
Don't think to much just do it!
Whatever it is - it "ain't" that serious!
It is perfectly okay to think you are HOTT!
Shopping "frugally" for quality items is totally possible!
Don't throw just anything away - SELL IT! Someone is willing to pay for it!
Air Condition IS a "Priority not a Luxury"
It takes entirely too much energy to hate someone
YOU ARE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT!
It is possible to fall in love with a pet
Money does not dictate your life - everyone wishes they had more of it - being broke is a universal concept
It could be much WORSE
It's 2 degrees of seperation (not six)
Support local artist
Those home decoration shows ARE helpful!
Own your emotions - if you feel it - let it show
Keep learning.....

Makin Moves

2005-07-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

So i'm outta here in T minus 28 days! August 7th, 2005 to be exact. (sigh)

I need to check my self into a mental hospital because i'm sure that I have some form of schizophrenia.

1/2 of my brain is screaming "Woo Hoo, Penn State Here I Come!!!" Free education, new faces, new experiences, new adventures and well a fresh change of scenery.

1/4 of my brain is like NewsFlash "City Boy to Move to Small Town", "Fiscal Issues Cause Severe Ramen Noodle Consumption, "Man Falls Trying to Balance a Long Distance Relationship, Work and School", "Walmart Replaces Kenneth Cole", "Mountains Replace Tall Buildings and Street Lights".

The remaining 1/4 of my brain is like "Tony - forreal - shup up, suck it up, and deal with it!"

I guess right now I need to focus on just getting all the things in my cozy DC apartment all packed up and moved to my spacious home on the range. I mean sure i'm gonna love the cheaper and larger place, but it won't have the character that 219 Upshur Street #204 had. No hardwood floors, No arced hallways, and the walls won't talk as much.

At least i'll have my kitty to keep things familiar. My sweet Sadie - she's gonna flip out up in them mountains with all the squirrels and foxes and God knows what else outside the window taunting her to play.

As far as work goes - My last day is August 8, 2005 and I am suffering from sever "Short Timers Disease" - i'm experiencing all the symptoms - (fatigue, laziness, 2 hour lunch breaks, lack of fear of getting fired, and well creating web blogs)...

Speaking of lunch - it's noon - i'll be back at 2? 3? ......